self-reflection : im disappointed...

this is just my own reflection..really..u can choose to ignore it.

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im disappointed wif myself.. seriously.. i dun get wats in my brain actually...

i study so hard..erm..okla..mayb not dat hard..but still... i studied ok? but i ended up being blank during exam hall..T.T

wats wrong wif me? wats d point for me to work so hard n i ended up losing memory/brain jam during exam?

is like as though im not studying at all..might as well just go play den when the time comes just go into the hall n take exam lo..since the end result would b almost d same...

u will never understand my feeling.. its miserable feeling helpless..

i look like a dumb dumb during exam :(

before exam..i can remember everything..can even them explain to my friend..

enter exam hall.. oh crap!wat did i studied just now?like total blank!!! den i started to stare at the paper..hopelessly..wishing buddha would fly to earth n save me....

so i ended up crapping in the whole paper n writting all the grandmama story i have created myself...

after exam.. darn!d answers slowly appear in my brain one by one hanuting me...


its frustrating u know??? i cant do anything anymore..felt like hiding in a corner n cry out loud for my stupidity...........


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bt i know dere's no point crying now..haiz....


i really couldnt understand myself n why buddha created me dis way?...